I suppose that not all dreams are meant to come true. But, to be so close that you actually can see it, well, that in itself is wonderful. Today however, I am trying to adjust to my dream having to go on hold.
The government decided not to fund me for schooling right now. Since I have been out of work, I have not been able to pay on the student loan I had taken out for Leah. That of course put me in default...so, even though I am not working still, if, I want to reach for my dream again, I have to make 6 monthly payments of more than I can afford right now. What a mess! I tried everything that I could think of, but, they just couldn't help me anymore than they already have.
I am trying to get a handle on my emotions right now. It was a huge blow to my inner peace and the excitement I was feeling. This most definitely was not the news that I wanted to hear. In the past, this is what would have sent me over the edge to make me eat, but, for today, I am just going to take my dogs and go into my bedroom, lay my head onto my pillow and dream.
I suppose that not all dreams are meant to come true. But, to be so close that you actually can see it, well, that in itself is wonderful. Today however, I am trying to adjust to my dream having to go on hold.
The government decided not to fund me for schooling right now. Since I have been out of work, I have not been able to pay on the student loan I had taken out for Leah. That of course put me in default...so, even though I am not working still, if, I want to reach for my dream again, I have to make 6 monthly payments of more than I can afford right now. What a mess! I tried everything that I could think of, but, they just couldn't help me anymore than they already have.
I am trying to get a handle on my emotions right now. It was a huge blow to my inner peace and the excitement I was feeling. This most definitely was not the news that I wanted to hear. In the past, this is what would have sent me over the edge to make me eat, but, for today, I am just going to take my dogs and go into my bedroom, lay my head onto my pillow and dream.
I'm sorry to hear that your dream had to be put on hold. I hope things all start working themselves out and you are able to pursue your dreams soon!
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